Chris and I are back together. :)
(My therapist gave me a high-five when I told her!)
It's been a long, weird, unexpected road, but I'm so thankful for it.
Like I've mentioned, we have both learned a lot about ourselves and we've learned a lot about our relationship - what it is and what we want it to be.
I know I kind of took a detour with this blog when Chris broke up with me - from anxiety/mental health issues to grieving/dealing with a breakup, but it's all part of it, I guess!
This in no way means that my anxiety is alleviated...I will just find something else to freak out about (although now I have tools to battle no matter what anxiety tends to be thrown my way).
When I no longer wanted to focus on my weight and decided to get help for my eating disorder years ago, I found different things about me weren't good enough instead – my hair, my skin, my teeth, my FINGERNAILS. Yep, seriously.
If I listen to anxiety, I will never be good enough.
The things that are already swirling in my head include: conversations Chris and I have to have about engagment/marriage and possibly moving to Knoxville, my dermatologist appointment in a week, a dentist appointment in two weeks, money to pay for extra things I have to do, etc.
(I wonder where I'd be right now if I never went to therapy, even though it's been a mere four months...)
For now, I'm going to enjoy the rain and lightning from my bedroom window as I drift off to sleep. Goodnight!